The Wake Up Call

Last Friday I went to a different churches youth group. The message was centered around prayer: What prayer is, what it isn't.
The preacher, Tim, pointed out that Jesus prays for us even when we don't know what to pray for. He said that prayer is something of importance, because it is directly speaking to God. He mentioned the message in the Bible talking about the hypocrites, praying in front of people to be noticed. But the thing that really hit me about his message was that he said sometimes God would wake him in the middle of the night just to pray, and that he didn't exactly know what he was supposed to be praying for, but he prayed.
I had never heard someone say that before, waking up to pray. I thought about how even if I did wake up in the middle of the night I wouldn't know to pray, that I'd be so out of it I wouldn't be able to think right enough to pray.

Saturday night I couldn't sleep. I did sleep until about 2, but then I was awake. I wondered why in the world I woke up. I was completely comfortable. Then I realized, maybe God wants me to pray.. And I did. I prayed for about 3 hours until i finally dozed off. 3 hours! It was so strange. It changed my view on prayer. Half of the time I wasn't even asking God for anything. Just thinking, talking the way you would to a friend. It was amazing.



But besides the awesomeness that happened this weekend.
I feel like there's a lot of work to do in my life. There's so much going on. I'm going to be driving soon and working. The school year is halfway over. There's dramatic change occurring all the time. I'm excited. :]
I've been thinking about what I want to be..
Maybe I can be in a band but what are the chances of that going somewhere?
Maybe I should be a nurse but do i have what it takes? or even a passion for it?
Or maybe a teacher.. Or an Artist.. Or.. Or .. I have no clue..

What does God want to do with me? :That's the question that's been bugging me for awhile now. He will have His way in the end, but I'm so eager to know what I'll be good at and what I'll do. It's like a kid waiting to open the largest Christmas present. I know I like it either way, but what could it possibly be!? But I have to wait patiently.
All I know is I want to be a influence on people. But who knows what God wants. Could be something very very different.


Oh well. We'll see eventually.
Until then..


>> Chelsy