So I have realized more and more as the day goes on. One thing I've noticed is that since I've started going out with Tommy, my relationship with Colten started to wither, until it completely died. Now I'm lucky if I even notice him. I don't really understand it, but I know one thing, it has to do with my sin issue "pleasing people". I think what I've done is actually fallen farther from God this past month or so. I think I've also put Tommy's needs before God's needs. So I really need to crack down on that book, the Bible and talking to Tommy :/
Which being the people pleaser I am is going to be tough enough because I realized I avoid conflict, but I know that with God's help I can overcome, and I know that in the end things will be better because of it.
Time to strap on my armor and head into battle :/
Adios
9/29/2008
The Confession of a People Pleaser
I got this book from the NANC conference at church that I was pushed into getting because Tommy and Andrew always say how I'm too much of a "People Pleaser" and I started thinking maybe they're right. The book is called "Pleasing People", what do you know, might as well be a slap in the face right from God saying "hey wake up!". I started reading it, already I'm being soo convicted and I'm only on page 30 :/
So it looks like I have a lot of work to do. Everything they're saying so far is all perfectly describing me and making me realize how deep in sin I am and was without even realizing it. Also I noticed I've been overlooking sins, passing them off as okay. I guess you could say I'm becoming very humble.
Well still trying to find a ride to school. I ask that you would pray for me. I need all the help I can get.
Adios
So it looks like I have a lot of work to do. Everything they're saying so far is all perfectly describing me and making me realize how deep in sin I am and was without even realizing it. Also I noticed I've been overlooking sins, passing them off as okay. I guess you could say I'm becoming very humble.
Well still trying to find a ride to school. I ask that you would pray for me. I need all the help I can get.
Adios
9/28/2008
Sunday Mornings
Well I don't hate waking up on Sunday for some reason it's never bothered me, even when I fall asleep at 2 in the morning. Today was kind of funny because my alarm went of at 6 telling me it was time to get up for school and immediatly I turned over and was like "NOOO! not monday". But then I realized... today's sunday. Then my mood changed dramatically cause WOOHOO I get another hour of sleep lol :]
Anyways that was a blab about my morning.
This past week has been strange. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but almost immediatly after I wrote my last post I felt my mood getting worse slowly. It started with my brother I think, he was supossed to come pick my up for church and he said he would, but then made a huge deal about it and tried to throw the responsibility on some one else :/ but after that I guess little things just kept getting to me. I wonder why that happens? I really want a good Bible verse that can tell me how to prevent stuff like that. I really just want to grow more though, I think that's something I'm aching for the most these days. I don't want to be super Christian I guess, but I'd like to be able to have contentment always and be able to help all the time with out my own problems being on my mind.
Oh well I'll figure it out if I keep praying. Got to go to church now.
Adios
Anyways that was a blab about my morning.
This past week has been strange. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but almost immediatly after I wrote my last post I felt my mood getting worse slowly. It started with my brother I think, he was supossed to come pick my up for church and he said he would, but then made a huge deal about it and tried to throw the responsibility on some one else :/ but after that I guess little things just kept getting to me. I wonder why that happens? I really want a good Bible verse that can tell me how to prevent stuff like that. I really just want to grow more though, I think that's something I'm aching for the most these days. I don't want to be super Christian I guess, but I'd like to be able to have contentment always and be able to help all the time with out my own problems being on my mind.
Oh well I'll figure it out if I keep praying. Got to go to church now.
Adios
9/21/2008
Coldplay just lifts a moment.
The feelings I have this morning are amazing :]
The best thing about God is there's always a shining light at the end of the tunnel. You can have the worst month of your life with so much to feel down about and then He gives you the most wonderful feeling that only God could give.
Last night: amazing. I feel like I'm falling more in love with Tommy and the Lord everyday and Tommy only pushes me closer to that feeling of closeness. I know that whatever problem I could come over Tommy would help guide me to where God wants me.
Well the night was something like this
1-He came to my house [when this happened I squeeled because he looked so hansom lol] and we took pictures with my mom and his family there.
2-We went to the dance way to early lol and danced our buts off! we're awesome dancers.
3-Left the dance before it ended and went to Longhorn Steak House where we witnessed the awesomest occurance ever [ask me about it later]!!
4-We had a whole hour before either of us had to be home so we went to my house and just hung out.
It was amazing :] I don't think I could have so much fun with anyone else. And the best part is that we get to do it all over again in about a month.
Adios
of to church! :D
The best thing about God is there's always a shining light at the end of the tunnel. You can have the worst month of your life with so much to feel down about and then He gives you the most wonderful feeling that only God could give.
Last night: amazing. I feel like I'm falling more in love with Tommy and the Lord everyday and Tommy only pushes me closer to that feeling of closeness. I know that whatever problem I could come over Tommy would help guide me to where God wants me.
Well the night was something like this
1-He came to my house [when this happened I squeeled because he looked so hansom lol] and we took pictures with my mom and his family there.
2-We went to the dance way to early lol and danced our buts off! we're awesome dancers.
3-Left the dance before it ended and went to Longhorn Steak House where we witnessed the awesomest occurance ever [ask me about it later]!!
4-We had a whole hour before either of us had to be home so we went to my house and just hung out.
It was amazing :] I don't think I could have so much fun with anyone else. And the best part is that we get to do it all over again in about a month.
Adios
of to church! :D
9/20/2008
Sorry for the long pause in writing
I really do like writing, but life can be so painfully busy. Luckly today I decided today that I would write on this thing :]
The spark that made me want to do this was Andrew started his blog and it reminded me that I started the blog to be a good testimony to anyone who would happen to read it and to hopefully glorify God with it. So I decided to write about what's been going on this past week that has really been amazing. I've realized more and more in my Christian walk how amazing everyday is and every moment within those days is a chance to please God. And by His grace I've begun to see that God is amazing and so in control. I feel like there's no need to be in a rotten mood and I've seen how much I've changed in this past year of coming to know Christ. Like for instance, I love to be around people and have fun, but it's no longer to glorify myself. Before if I ever went to a party or out with a group of friends I would end up getting soo depressed by the end of night and ruining my chances of having fun just so I would get attention and just so some one would ask me what was wrong. When really if I would have just thrown aside the problems and tried to lift others up instead of myself I probably would have had more fun and better friends because of it. I've noticed how much things make sense when you think the way the Lord thinks and see the way He sees. I've noticed that the world is SO blind to the very plain and obvious set write in front of them. They have all the answers they could ever need yet somehow they search for them anywhere, but the right place. When you have God's word to go off of everything just makes sense and you can have infinate knowledge that you can actually put to use.
Another thing I've noticed lately is how I love to woship God in the form of music. I don't think I've ever gotten such a high as when I play for the youth group at our church and I hear everyone sing as loud as possible and it's to lift up His name. It's truly amazing and it makes me get such a rush that I've been able to do something good in His eyes and that I could help others do the same. There never seemed to be a point in learning guitar or trying to sing better or memorize songs until I realized how much it could please God and be so helpful to our church. Now I feel a need to be as good as possible at guitar and I'm thinking of starting a band with anyone who is a growing Christian and sees these things like I do. I think it could really make a difference.
But besides the amazing amount of growth I've experienced this year there have been so many things going on elsewhere too. Like getting a boyfriend who I can count on to be a good influence on me and a spiritual leader in my life. We're going to homecoming tonight and I'm so excited to be all pretty and dolled up for him. I really hope he likes my dress and my hair. Another thing I've noticed about me and Tommy is that no matter what problems we come across we can always face them so easily and do it together. It's only by God's grace :]
Well I have so much I could write about but I think it would be wise to not spend so much time on here.
Be on the look out I'm going to post a very long entry on witnessing to someone over the internet soon :]
The spark that made me want to do this was Andrew started his blog and it reminded me that I started the blog to be a good testimony to anyone who would happen to read it and to hopefully glorify God with it. So I decided to write about what's been going on this past week that has really been amazing. I've realized more and more in my Christian walk how amazing everyday is and every moment within those days is a chance to please God. And by His grace I've begun to see that God is amazing and so in control. I feel like there's no need to be in a rotten mood and I've seen how much I've changed in this past year of coming to know Christ. Like for instance, I love to be around people and have fun, but it's no longer to glorify myself. Before if I ever went to a party or out with a group of friends I would end up getting soo depressed by the end of night and ruining my chances of having fun just so I would get attention and just so some one would ask me what was wrong. When really if I would have just thrown aside the problems and tried to lift others up instead of myself I probably would have had more fun and better friends because of it. I've noticed how much things make sense when you think the way the Lord thinks and see the way He sees. I've noticed that the world is SO blind to the very plain and obvious set write in front of them. They have all the answers they could ever need yet somehow they search for them anywhere, but the right place. When you have God's word to go off of everything just makes sense and you can have infinate knowledge that you can actually put to use.
Another thing I've noticed lately is how I love to woship God in the form of music. I don't think I've ever gotten such a high as when I play for the youth group at our church and I hear everyone sing as loud as possible and it's to lift up His name. It's truly amazing and it makes me get such a rush that I've been able to do something good in His eyes and that I could help others do the same. There never seemed to be a point in learning guitar or trying to sing better or memorize songs until I realized how much it could please God and be so helpful to our church. Now I feel a need to be as good as possible at guitar and I'm thinking of starting a band with anyone who is a growing Christian and sees these things like I do. I think it could really make a difference.
But besides the amazing amount of growth I've experienced this year there have been so many things going on elsewhere too. Like getting a boyfriend who I can count on to be a good influence on me and a spiritual leader in my life. We're going to homecoming tonight and I'm so excited to be all pretty and dolled up for him. I really hope he likes my dress and my hair. Another thing I've noticed about me and Tommy is that no matter what problems we come across we can always face them so easily and do it together. It's only by God's grace :]
Well I have so much I could write about but I think it would be wise to not spend so much time on here.
Be on the look out I'm going to post a very long entry on witnessing to someone over the internet soon :]
9/13/2008
The Blog
So I finally figured out what was wrong with the signing in onto here. I put in the wrong password first of all lol and then when I would log on I thought it was my old account cause it looked funny. So now that that's all settled and I can get on here now [haha] here's what's up:
Listening to Gavin De Graw right now, who is amazing at writing some good beats I must say.
Just got back from the CDT meeting [Counseling and Dicipleship Training] which was an awesome way to learn about Christ and how to talk to people about God. Also they had some really good points when it came to pshcology and "The World's" point of view on things. I especially liked when they broke it down into Man's different views of sin and psychology and God's point of view on this neat little chart. I'll probably write more about CDT when I get a little less busy. Today was long, that's all I gotta say.
But my plan for the rest of the day is to rest up a little bit and try not to be too lazy. Hopefully I won't be. I'm thinking maybe this blog would be a good way to keep eachother accountable and spread the word of God.
Which I've noticed the internet is an AWESOME way of spreading God's word. You can talk to some one and lead them to Christ from your own bedroom when they're halfway around the world. For instance [I will have to post this later] I have begun talking to some one I have never met on Guitar Tabs.com via messaging and they are very interested in learning about Christ. I'm very excited to see how that turns out! ask me about it later. I plan on reading snd replying to their latest message tonight and making some kind of Chronicle on it. lol
Adios
Listening to Gavin De Graw right now, who is amazing at writing some good beats I must say.
Just got back from the CDT meeting [Counseling and Dicipleship Training] which was an awesome way to learn about Christ and how to talk to people about God. Also they had some really good points when it came to pshcology and "The World's" point of view on things. I especially liked when they broke it down into Man's different views of sin and psychology and God's point of view on this neat little chart. I'll probably write more about CDT when I get a little less busy. Today was long, that's all I gotta say.
But my plan for the rest of the day is to rest up a little bit and try not to be too lazy. Hopefully I won't be. I'm thinking maybe this blog would be a good way to keep eachother accountable and spread the word of God.
Which I've noticed the internet is an AWESOME way of spreading God's word. You can talk to some one and lead them to Christ from your own bedroom when they're halfway around the world. For instance [I will have to post this later] I have begun talking to some one I have never met on Guitar Tabs.com via messaging and they are very interested in learning about Christ. I'm very excited to see how that turns out! ask me about it later. I plan on reading snd replying to their latest message tonight and making some kind of Chronicle on it. lol
Adios
9/12/2008
First Post
Today is the first day of the blog which I hope will be sucessful. I stayed home from school today for almost no good reason, but it will finally give me some free time which is much needed. I've had so much homework lately that I feel bad for the people carrying my books [Fyi: foots broken].
But for right now I shouldn't be spending so much time on this. I still have a lot to do today, but I'll post again soon :]
Adios
But for right now I shouldn't be spending so much time on this. I still have a lot to do today, but I'll post again soon :]
Adios
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